Monday, September 29, 2008 10:28 PM
didn't update for 3days aye ?
Hahs! due to buzy with "Hari Raya" preparation.
Saturday : Went geylang with Shah, Mamy, Papa,& Mira.
When shopping. Brought my baju raye alrdy. This year family White.
Haha. Baju raye ku rimas sak ! ughhhhhhhhh~ irritating.
I swear I'm gonna wear it once, which is on the 1day of raye.
THAT'S ALL ! after that I'm gonna chuck that in my cupboard.
FOREVERRRRRRRRRR; & i mean it.
Sunday : Stayed @ home the whole day.
Did house cleaning,& help mamy bake cookies.
haha. tiring day. =P
& so today.
Had physics, chemistry,& maths paper 1.
macam sial sak paper itu semua.
whatever it is, ITS OVER !
after school LEPAKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK !
done.
Well, now something got me really shock.
Ok, Constance the only one knew.
I'M CONFUSED ! sigh~
I'll think about it yaw .
(
shall not elaborate more)
To B : I don't know why ...
I guess I have to tell u the truth.
My love is fading .............................
It's hard for me to love again.
Yeaa, my fault. I konw I'm hurting u know.
But partly, try to understand .
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.................. I hope u understand .
& so that's all.
shall update soon.
Labels: Te quiero mas que el amor - I love you more than love.
tired laa
Thursday, September 25, 2008 8:27 PM
today meeting with my babygirls canceled.
due to some reasons.
nak kemas umah lor. huakhuak! Nas rajin dok. =P
& so, while doing the house chores.
Md. Shahmizi call,& ajak lepak.
I told him alot of time I'm very buzy today.
still degil pulak itu nak dtg.
well, he came my place. rumah berserak!!
lepak lepak lepak lepak lepak ...............................
Hmm, miss him lur. tkmoh pikir bukan² eyh.
kite abg adekk tau. (:
Then @ 5 met constance, lepak ngan die jap.
Constance, I'm still not confirm about tomorrow.
I'm sorry if I could make it. I hope u understand kays.
Love you always. send my regards to ShimaShimy aye ? (:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SHIMA, CONSTANCE,& KURNIAWAN!may u guys wish come true. senyum² selalu! (:
Both pictures edited by Shah. xD
Labels: Nas nak duit raye. ): hehex
hurts alot.
9:28 AM
Sometimes I feel I need a break.
I wanna break off. But afterall, I love him.
He changed! Where's the old Nazrul whom stole my heart.
Mengapa harus ko berubah? adakah ini semua keranaku ?
It's amazing how someone can break my heart, but I still love them
with all the little pieces. Whatever it takes.
Basically, he isn't that bad. Just that I'm being patient with his attitude.
alright alright, this situation is partly my fault too.
But guys, u guys doesn't know how to be gentlemen enough ?
hah, I don't think so. Why must this always happening ?
I need guidance to get through the day,& a blade to get through the night.
Sometimes, fate has a cruel way of putting things together.
Maybe it's better if people just give up when there's no point
in fighting for something anymore. Agree ?
Ohh well, spiteful words can hurt ur feelings but silence breaks ur heart.
He can do anything he wants that hurt me inside,
without him realizing it. But whenever it comes to me,
his being so sensitive.
OMFG !I just not strong as before.
Nazrul, kata-katamu hanye manis dibibir.
Remember I'm always faithful.
mark my words always;
KU DA LUDAH, TK AKAN JILAT ALEK EYH !bare that in mind. (:
Labels: emotionally I'm completely taken.
studyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
Wednesday, September 24, 2008 8:44 PM
still wondering, still confuse.
shouldI accept his proposal ?
damn! He wants to engage with me.
well,
WHAT THE HECK?!I'm just 16,& I still wanna enjoy my ass off.
besides, is he outta his mind or something?
I've explain clearly to him.
"We'll talk about this in 2yrs time?"
His reply was, "Why? I wanna be serious with u."
His fear was I would leave him any point of time.
Sometimes, its stupid. Afterall, I'M STILL YOUNG !!
OMFG!Perhaps, I know him for bloody 4yrs.
& don't tell me, he still doesn't know me well ? hmm.
GET ME OUT OF THIS SHIT ! @#$%^&*
Nazrul, do think about it aites.
I'm 16,& u're 19 ? We are still young.
perhaps, ENGAGEMENT; IT IS A BIG MATTER !
& so lets talk about today.
When study with my dearest babygirl.
I really study sia . ^^ maths tau !
good enough. in class couldn't study.
always got chase out !! so unreasonable.
tomorrow going for study again.
yay-NESS ! cam-whore again.
thats all for today folks. =P
NAZRUL THINK, THINKKKKKKKKKKKKKK !
This situation is driving me crazy .
Labels: I Miss Ellysa OI
Tuesday, September 23, 2008 9:34 AM
Ystd was fun fun fun,
though its kinda tiring day for me.
laugh my ass off alot.
I'm still not feeling well.
pls let me recover. ):
had a big argument with Nazrul.
Now everything is ok.
still, I do love him alot.
Now I'm feeling so sleepy.
But I don't feel like sleeping.
How stupid I am now.
ass!
listed alot of things to buy after my pay day.
- hoodie.
- converse cap.
- adidas slip on slipper/shoe.
- adidas jacket for him.
Those are the important wantings.
heh.
Ok done, i'm out now.
Well, its kinda boring post.
but still, I DID UPDATE !
peace.=P
Labels: ohh kasih mengapa.
bored
Saturday, September 20, 2008 5:45 PM
woke up quite late this morning.
due to the late night call.
talked with bby. Heh!
Well, I'm missing him alot now.
2days to our
1mth anniversary.
nabuey sak die.
betol peh tkder kerje.
Suke nye msg, "
B ngah wadpe ".
Bile ku daa reply, few minutes later, "
B ngah wadpe? ".
Konek sak die kadang² . Haha !
perangai .....
currently having high fever.
Lost my voice, suare da mcm "
Ramli Sarep" babe.
Hahs! My flu is driving me crazy.
I just need CIGARETTES ! damn it.
Canceled today outing with mummy.
She had to go back to work . Hmm.
besides, I'm not feeling well too .
Not in the shape to go out. so yeaa.
ok, till here then.
B ! LOVE YOU LAA TETEK.Labels: You're the reason .
survey !
Friday, September 19, 2008 7:05 PM
Im Tagged by Constance Chen.
"Pass this quiz to 10 persons."
1) Babysis.
2) Aida.
3) Minn.
4) Kak Lisa.
5) Nisa.
6) Yatie.
7) Farshy.
8) Ashikin.
9) Fazlianah.
10) Issha.
1. The Person who tag/pass you is?
Ans] Constance.
2. Your relationship with him/her is?
Ans] bestfriend worth 7yrs.
3. Your five impression of him/her?
Ans] short, sexy, horny, loud, asshole !
afterall, she's still like sweetness of the sugar .
4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you?
Ans] alot,& don't expect me to list everything.
5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you?
Ans] " I'll always support you. "
6. If he/she become your lover you will?
Ans] She is my lover. heh!
7. If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be?
Ans] Nothing, everything is perfect.
8. If he/she become your enemy, you will?
Ans] NO !
9. If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be?
Ans] Trust me, NEVER !
10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is?
Ans ] Stand for her rights,& always supporting her.
11. Your overall impression of him/her is?
Ans] a trustworth bestfriend.
12.How you think people around you will feel about you?
Ans] a bitch, heh! IDK? hmm .. =P
13. The characters you love of yourself are?
Ans] I am who I am .
14. The most ideal person you want to be is?
Ans] Is myself, get what I mean ?
15. For people that care and like you, say something to them?
Ans] I appreciated ! (:
16. Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you or on a random basis. They are
1) Constance.
2) Babysis.
3) Aida.
4) Lina.
5) Dayah.
6) Ika.
7) Kak Lisa.
8) Nana.
9) Ellysa.
10) Nat.
17. Who is no. 6(Ika) having relationship with?
Ans] My Bitch partner? Hoho, she's happily swinging single.
18. Is no.9(Ellysa) a male or female?
Ans] Female.
19. If number 7 (Kak Lisa) and 10(Nat) are together, will it be a good thing?
Ans] HAHA!! I'll laugh my ass out.
20. What is no.2 (Babysis)studying about?
Ans] Err .. B, you study ape uh? =P
21. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3(Aida)?
Ans] Ystd, infact everyday.
22. What kind of music band does no.8(nana) like?
Ans] She's more into sentimental.
23. Does no.1(Cons) have any siblings?
Ans] 3.
24. Will you woo no.3(Aida)?
Ans] err .. huh?
25. How about number 7(Kak Lisa)?
Ans] She's agirl for goodness sake.
26. Is no. 4(Lina) single?
Ans] Happily Attached with my cousin .
27 What is the surname of no.5(Dayah)?
Ans] No surname laa stupid. but SMALL FRIES ! (:
28. What's the hobby of no. 10(Nat)?
Ans] Going toilet with me,& she's my toilet bitch.
29. Does no.5(Dayah) & 9(Ellysa) get along well?
Ans] We all jiwes laa.
30. Where is no.2(Babysis) studying at?
Ans] I Don't Know. ^^
31. Talk something casually about no. 1(Constance)?
Ans] She's always there. She's a sweetheart.
32. Have you tried developing feelings for no. 6(Ika)?
Ans] I LOVE HER ! my one,& only bitch partner.
33. Where does no.9(Ellysa) live at?
Ans] Woodlands.
34. What colour does no.4 (Lina) like?
Ans] pink ? heh. IDK. soory linabby.
35. Are no.5(dayah) and 1(constance) best friends?
Ans] Get along well, close peeps.
36. Is no.7(Kak Lisa) the sexiest person in the world?
Ans] ohh yess. not only sexy, but hot to the mamma.
37. What is no.6 (ika)doing now?
Ans] Berak I guess.
Alright Constance, I'm done with this survey !
(:
Labels: I'm loving you more each day.
hmm.
Thursday, September 18, 2008 8:59 PM
When Cwp this afternoon with Cons.
While was @ the blues shop, bumped into Sasha,& Anoi.
Miss them laa. Anjat baby.
Basturd sia drg tk perasan itu ku.
They said my face changed alot. Hmm.
Maybe ? IDK!
so yea, Anoi met pendek.
Left Cons, Sasha,& me.
Bus-ed back to yishun. Heh!
Today actually meeting my bby.
Heh! Was too happy with my friends smpai tk msg die pun.
*sheesh* sorry B. =P
Promise I'll meet u soon.
Don't worry I won't be notty.
I'll behave. &thats my promise sayang.
Loving you always.
& to my jiwe 399.
paisey uh banyak² .
Memang ku menghilang, ku da berubah .
Tapi ku tetap pandang korang siol.
Menang dulu ku pun ade lancauwei pasal Aida.
But, GOD gave me brain to think.
Afterall, She's still my friend.
Enermy is a disease,& so yeaa.
To
Nana:Ku harap ko faham perasan ku.
yea, u may feel that we're drifting apart.
Well, in my heart u're always be there.
Ku buat gini kerane ku tak suke kawan² ku saket hati.
Ko sendiri kate yang ko tknk siape² left out, betol tak.
Tapi ku tgk, ko ngan Lina semua.
Ini bukan ku kate kerane ku saket hati siol.
Ku bbl straight punye.
Ko ckp yang ku da jadi sisterlurp Aida.
Salah ke ku berkawan same die.
Die pun kwn ku, kite orang jugak pe.
To
Lina.& Dayah.Ini ku tak tau uh, lau ku tulis gini korang nak ckp ape, ckp uh.
Ini bukan ape, ku da lame perhatikan,& da lame simpan.
menang korang & siape² laa tk suke Aida peh care.
Kite semue da bobal same die, betol ?
Lagi ape lagi yang krg tk puas hati? org pun ader peransan siol.
ape sak mau gado², anti sini sane.
Favour uh, kite semue da matured, malu tau.
Bedek uh lau krg pikir die tk penah tolong krg.
Think aites.
To
Sasa.Ur always be my babygirl.
My love-ABLE cousin.
Kite semenjak sec1 kite rapat.
buat jahat same².
Tkkn ko tak paham perasan ku ?
Sa, kite tk penah gado.
Gado pun kejap, kerane kite ade otak utk pikir.
Kite susah senang same², agree ?
Ini bukan ku tk pandang ko, tapi ku harap ko paham uhh.
Thanks for being there always.
To my
girlfriends;
I HOPE U ALL READ THIS; thanks.
Satu jek uhh pesan ku, kite susah senang same².
4yrs of knowing each other.
Lets just forgive,& forget.
Well, I've been through every shit of this longlasting friendship.
so, I know how other feels.
(
tk paham sendiri mau tau kays)
keeping the sisterhood strong.
Jiwe 399. sa kau kau.
Pesanan dari SACHIKO !
BARE THIS IN MIND, KU TAK SUKE ORANGLUAR MASOK CAMPUR!
TAK SUKE, BLEH BOBAL!
KU SIKIT PUN TKDER HERAN !
Labels: This is friendship
met baby
Wednesday, September 17, 2008 10:50 PM
Met bby this afternoon.
had a little arguments with him.
OMG ! since pass 2days dragged matters.
asshole. so yea, sort things out smoothly.
& now everything is alright.
well, been scolded alot.
he advice me alot.
How stupid I am to create lodsa trouble. Hmm.
He saw the tattoo on my hand.
Mangkok! api teros menirap siol die.
But then after all, everything happens for a reason.
Semua sudah berlaku, no regrets yeaa.
His like my 2nd mother to me.
seriously, he nagged like ...........................
Ok, I don't wanna say. (
basturd sia Nas)
=P afterall, today was happening.
Thanks alot to B .
HE MADE MY DAY ! (:_________________
Well friends.
I miss you all so much .
Shall meet u girls very soon.
I promise I'll come back sch during NLVLS.
Love u girls, muacks.
signing off now.
Gonna get some rest .
Gahh~ wasted! all pictures is with him.
In his hp. *
angry*
Labels: You're the one .
sick basturd
Tuesday, September 16, 2008 7:57 PM
PARTLY, TODAY IS LIKE A BITCH !
To: Nazrul.
Your just another basturd in my life.
Your just making a fool out of urself.
Getta life.
HAHAHA !Just wait,& see what will happen next.
& you'll be sorry.
Sweet revenge is my favourate, dear darling .
I'm just ur little devil. Just watch your back.
Play punk with me? & I'll show my nastiness.
bare with it sooner or later hunneh.
takecare eyh.
U're just a little pin in ur fucking butt!
_______________
So yeaa, nothing much to talk about.
Not in shape.
YOU,& YOUR TWISTED WORDS!
Labels: preferable single. cigarettes makes everything better.
boring !
Saturday, September 13, 2008 12:03 PM
2more days meeting baby .
yay-NESS ! God, I miss him alot.
cepat laa bookout !!!!!!!!! gahh~
so yea, ystd when out with CHEN again.
hahaha. as usual, full of laughter.
Well, I realized something.
Whenever I'm with her, I really cut down on my puff.
Thanks to her alot.
Sooner or later I'll be smoke free .
Is that possible? I hope so.
So love, do go out with me often. HAHAHA !
Going out soon.
To cousins place.
They having some sort of open house.
ntah laa, what kinda occasion.
Ok done.
ciowz. =P
Labels: Nazrul's love.
B. I sorry.
Tuesday, September 9, 2008 8:10 PM
Ignore the previous post.I wasn't in me.
(
ku terlalu mengikutkan perasaan. )
Been arguing with Bby alot each day .
Perhaps, his being too sensitive. of sudden attitude changes.
Wonders. small matter becoming big matters each day.
SO UNREASONABLE, & PATHETIC !I just dislike the attitude his giving me nowadays.
Wheres the old him ?
whatever I told you, you simply DOESN'T CARE.
asshole, + you making it all my fault.
well, If I hate you so much, why I still love youu ? ):
I do my thing,& you do yours.
I am not in this world to live up to your expectations.
& you are not here to live up mine. you are you, I am I.
& if gods willing, we shall sort thing out.
I will always be here, with you .
No matter what I'll never leave you.
Well, B I hope you think about it.
I'll give you time to change.
Just that I want you to trust me.
I'm not playing behind your back.
Now your serving Ns for 2yrs, I promise I'll wait for you.
I know you might thinking I'll be with other guy while your inside.
or maybe you think I might just get bored .
Don't think that way pls.
& of course I will be faithful to you.
By all mean, with ur old attitude.
The sweet cutely cuddly Nazrul.
Even though its hard for us to meet that often,
time clashed, & with my paitao-NESS,
doesn't mean I don't wanna spent time with u.
Understood ?
With all my heart ..
I love You so much Nazrul .
I promise I won't hurt you anymore.
I'll think twice before anything.
With you my heart will always stay. With you my thoughts will be every day.
You remain to be the one that I regret letting get away.
You are the one I will always wish was never gone.
Missing you so much.
muacks.
22.08.08; friday .
0850pm.
BABY, I'M SORRY FOR EVERYTHING !
Labels: No amount of medication could ever heal the ache of a broken heart.
cb
Saturday, September 6, 2008 3:00 PM
I HATE MY FAMILY !
THEY SUCKS TO THE CORE !!!!!!
Labels: as though I fcuk arnd.
nas giler ..
Thursday, September 4, 2008 9:20 PM
When out with CONSTANCE CHEN just now.
Aida unable to tagg along. ):
never mind next time kays.
When to hougang 1st, send Mira to her nenek's house.
Then, off to cityhall. ripcurl shop.
Cons brought the "stussy" wallet for Shima's bday.
worth it laa. $30+, can't remember. aimed that hoddie alrdy.
gonna save up! =P Love, go shopping with me again pretty soon.
so yea, then off to esplanade. chill over there, took pictures.
Cons was the photographer of the day, well of course I'm the "model".
Ehemmmmmmm .. (as she said )
Then, we decide to head down to bugis.
planned to buy tops for this coming saturday.
Meeting my bby. LOLS !
& I brought a beg too. hehex !
pictures will upload soon.
CHEN FASTER ONLINE LAA !
hahahahahahahaha.
I miss you baby.
muacks.
I seldom say I love you though the feelings are always there.
Somehow these 3 words are the hardest ones to share.
I speak my love thru some way of my own,
coz the love I feel for you is too big for words alone.
Touch my heart and you will hear,
look in to my heart and you will see,
that you will always be a special part of me.
Labels: here loving you always .. ^^
i lv you
Tuesday, September 2, 2008 8:03 PM
SAYANG, SORRY FOR THOSE ARGUMENTS THAT WE HAD THIS PAST FEW DAYS.
MY FAULT. I'M BEING SELFISH,& UNREASONABLE.
THANKS FOR YOUR PATIENTS. YOU ARE MY POISON, MY DRUG,& LOVE.
I WANT YOU TO KNOW, YOU ARE WHAT KEEP ME STRONG.
You've brought sunshine into my life. you've filled me with happiness i never knew.
you gave me more joy than i ever dreamed of. & no one, no one can take the place of you.
Bby in camp now .
phft~ well, besok die kuwa jap ade appointment.
not meeting him. saturday I think.
hmm ... lom conferm eyh B .
=P
Missing u too much love.
Labels: my beautiful mistake .
attached/
Monday, September 1, 2008 6:03 PM
220808, our love journey begins.
love him now, always & forever .
nothing could separate us like before.
like he said . (:
I'll always pray to GOD that our love will always be strong.
We'll hold on tight,& never let go .
loving u always B.
I love the sweet things you say to me, even when I'm screaming at you.
I love how you love me -& aren't afraid to show it.
I love how you make me want to be a better person than I ever thought I could be.
But mostly, I love you. All the good things, all the bad, all the mistakes, all the surprises,
all the imperfections, all of it... just because they're yours.
I'm in love with everything about you.
the way you talk,& the way you laugh.
But most of all the way you make me smile,
& the way you make me laugh .
Happily attached !
0850pm. nazrul's baby .
Labels: B, i love you.
Love ones.
Because they are special.
The Boyfriend & 8years Bestfriend.
All Time Bitch, Best Buddy & BabySis.
Kecohrable Gf, SweetHeart, The Babe & Baby.
Belo Closemate, Irritating Ones, CloseFriend & Partner In Crime.